& so it begins

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i have a hole where my wisdom tooth use to be. i thought it would be better to get rid of it because it grew out a little and it kept me thinking that it was food stuck in my teeth. NOW i'm dealing with food actually getting stuck in that hole. this is horrible. i can't even reach it. that is all.
is nowhere to be found. i hate when i push myself to stay awake just for one more hour and then end up not feeling sleepy afterwards. random meesh fact: i enjoy napping during a movie at home. it's the most comfortable thing because it feels like a good long nap but it hasn't because the movie isn't over yet and you can always replay what you missed out. my boyfriend hates it a lot. so i tried to stay awake watching lady and the tramp which was a success but now i'm wide awake and at home. i've been sleeping over steven's house a lot lately. i don't know if i'm pushing my boundaries between both steven's and my parents but they haven't say anything yet. i was given the permission from steven's mother when she told steven that she didn't like me driving late at night even though i live 5 minutes away. i'm at a rutt. i'm doing nothing with my life right now and hoping for something to come to me. yes, that's ridiculous and stupid on my part. i feel like i don't have the push to succeed. i feel like a complete failure. my dad isn't even proud of me finishing college. even though i feel so down, i don't even try. shit. blonde hair is high maintenance and it's damaging the shit out of my hair but i still love the color on me :[ i'm going to vegas again. i've gone in may, june, and july. this trip will be with people i've never gone with so it'll be interesting. i'm excited. i have grown out of my shy state and now have this mindset that "why does it matter what they think of me? i have everyone i need in my life who loves me the way i am" so watch out world, it's my time to shine however the heck i want. i shall end my random ramblings and rants now. i will commit this time for that i have been hesitant to post lately but here you go to my fewer than 10 followers. enjoy.