& so it begins

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these purple contacts look better not photographed with flash. i do love my orange-pink lipstick though. i want to wear it everyday.

anywho my crazy make-up was for the wonderful gay bar in upland called oasis. nila, grace, and i got to enjoy a tranny show, then nila and i danced the night away. nila and i were called a cute couple by a very drunk gay guy and were surrounded by very talented dancing boys. i could not keep up with them booty shaking skills. plus: i did get attention from many. minus: it was so that they can compliment my outfit. all together, i rather stick to normal clubs because i slightly enjoy the attention from the creepers.

today, i got to enjoy a bike ride along the santa ana river, which i always questioned steven "is that the LA river?" for any man made river in socal. my sad flat butt and sore shoulders are in pain but it was very nice out today.

school's almost done. hell yeah. the end :]
Time. To. Tan.

i absolutely love my new bathing suits. i got two which were mix and match from whatever looked good to me in my opinion from the victoria's secret website. both bottoms are very cheeky so my buttocks will be amazing in them. the tops help with the illusion of curves. now i just need to tan my whole freaking body so i don't have no crazy tan lines. i'm so tempted to do tanning beds but being asian, (esp since i'm mostly viet) i should tan like a mofo easily. ahh.

the weather needs to get hotter. i did get to enjoy wearing shorts today which felt amazing.

i'm not sore anymore..that means back to the gym i go :[
although i'm a complicated person, my life is very simple. i go to school. i spend most of my time with the boyfriend. i rent and watch movies with my brothers at home. sunday is family day in which we go out to eat together. i work a few days. during work and school is when i befriend people. i rarely get out anymore. that's about it. i don't have anymore drama with people because i distance myself from people.

i would like to say my life is simple because my time is mostly taken up by my boyfriend. it's not a bad thing. it keeps things easier for me and i enjoy it. it's not that i always need my boyfriend around all the time, it's that i want him around all the time. it's love and people will always complain we spend too much time together. that's jealousy. i guess you'll just have to be in love in order to understand.

i know my relationship with steven is not perfect but we're not perfect people. we fight because we have differences and we work through it now. our love has gone through the "puberty stage" after so many years. we put a lot of work into this. we've change and grown throughout the years and i'm glad we never changed our feelings for each other. the next obstacle in our life would be distance if it is to occur.

well then, the only difficulty part in my life is studying and working hard in school. i just can't do it. so i must get back to it :[

ps of all the people i know my age/during high school, we're together the longest. 6 years anni is coming up!
I just remembered that i bought two bathing suits and a bra at 2am. wow, first i wanted to buy because there was free shipping if you spent $60 on swim wear. then i got a first look of the semi-annual sale email so i added a bra for $25. so i ended up spending a little over $100 and got the free shipping for spending $100.

so they tricked me into buying by sending me emails on their "free shipping" deals. oh i should never check my "shopping" email. that's where i get tempted to buy. stupid email account!! can someone just filter it for me??

btw, i hope these bathing suits look hot hot hotttt! lol i guess i won't be returning any of it.
you continuously go through this cycle. it's obvious what's going to happen and it's not going to be pretty for you when it ends. why do you never learn? do you like getting hurt? you're being used.

my mother picked out this wonderful silver bag to match my sparkle silver toms! it's the poppy edition of coach and the material is super nice. i just want to rub it all day (that's what she says).

it sucks maturing btw. when i'm at the mall now, i think "i don't have the money for this and really, i won't wear it" rather than "OOOH! buy buy buy!" it saddens me. where is all my money?

vegas is coming up in june!! i need to make a shopping list full of slutty outfits and sexy bathing suits.
i obviously don't. i know this is harsh thinking but if people want to continue smoking after getting surgeries from all that health risk of smoking. just let them be. let them die a horrible painful death. it's what they want. or people who love drugs/alcohol. let them overdose and die. obviously they don't know how to stop partying. it's okay, we don't need them in our world. well i don't need them in my world. allow them to be idiots so that they can die faster/younger. yeah i'm bitchy. i'm just tired of walking behind people who are smoking. but forrealsies go drink, get high, do crazy ass drugs, just don't kill the innocents around you yeah? just go overdose on your own. kkthanksbye.


it's only 1440. easy money.
i know no one wants to tell me because i'm skinny and they want me to gain the weight but seriously what the freak? my face is super fat. and all my pants are fitting super tight :[ time for more gym because summer is around the corner. shiaaaaaat.

i ain't no anorexic though, i will continue to eat what i love. just maybe moderation is the key for me. booooo