& so it begins

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can go mind their business about their religion. not everyone wants to follow your beliefs. your belief isn't the right religion. it's not superior over all religion. stop abusing your religion by making it everyone's business to know how religious you are. if you were so damn religious then stop fucking around and using the excuse "oh jesus will forgive me." stop using it for stupid shit like "i don't believe in condoms, it's against my religion," because if that's the case then you should think about the whole not having sex before marriage part first homie. freaking idiots. don't push me to your religion. your religion has caused many horrible deaths from wars and holocausts. so no thank you.

i'm sick of the whole show offs. it's very unchristian-like. a lot of the things you do is very unchristian-like. hate is one of them. maybe you should learn about that. go better yourself.
of things i do really really need:

tall flat boots
rain boots
warm knitted cardigans
warm clothing (i can't find any my "winter" clothes, wtf?)

but first, i need to get my lazy ass a job. my school schedule conflicts with finding a job. BOOOOOOO. and i need to worry about affording a car as well. sucks. stupid car accident. >:[
i feel so much more healthier not working. also i get shit done for school. i concentrate more now that all my concentration is only to school. like my brain is just soaking everything in lol. i didn't know work took so much out of me. but i do stress about the money situation. i hate feeling like a cheap bum. i can't change my tendency to eat out a lot :[ and i also can't ask money from my parents since i have been so independent on cash flow and because the family income is solely from my father. being poor sucks ass. i don't know how people do it.
i'm sick of all these multicultural shit. let's get together and be one race. so start mating with crazy mixes.
why must you come at the worst time? is that why i have been having a good week because you're coming next week? during midterm week?! i have already received the wonderful headaches and drowsy syndrome before your arrival.

why am i having such a good start of this week/month? starters, knotts berry halloween hunt was fun on sunday with a big group of people. some were first timers so it was extra thrilling to see them get scared so easily :] monday, i received news that i will be getting a lot more than expected from the car accident. they also provided a inconvenience money for not having a car to drive with. also, i have a new phone that i adore, the g2 from tmobile. today, i had no trouble finding parking! also, i tried on my prom dress and i still fit it after four years. i figured out what car i want to get. i'm done being picky. and that's it for the good stuff.

bad news: no job, i haven't been studying, i'm getting lazy with school. ugh!
i had the dream about the two of you in vegas acting all awkward. fuck that, i don't know why you were even in my dreams. anyways, in vegas we stayed at the hotel made by bj's restaurant lmao. also we were gonna do hot pot with seafood at the room because being asian and all we brought our own hot pot and seafood. so weird. i'm so weird.
every time i see cute photography of weddings or watch television shows of getting the dress (say yes to the dress), makes me want to start planning out my wedding. i'm the type of girl who already has in mind her dream wedding, i'm not even kidding. i absolutely adore weddings. i'm a crybaby too. i cry tears of joy for loving couples. i can't wait to be married. i really don't care if my guest list is small (it's better like that anyways), i just want to be surrounded by those who loved me and my fiancée lmao. that's all. i am also excited to have a child. haha it's the woman in me. i always claim i want a baby when i see an adorable child walking by me. i can't wait til i get my career going and get married to have a baby as well lol.

and if you ladies feel me on this. here's eyecandy for you: www.stylemepretty.com. you get to see all types of different weddings.

this is what i get to drive with for a few days ahhhh so nice

i have so much to read. so much to memorize and understand. so much studying. agh!

i am excited for audrey's 21st and knott's scary farm. woohoo!

i have nothing interesting happening in my life except failing at it so goodnight.
consists of:

drinking
dancing
partying

THEN

studying.
hurry up and come so i can wear tights, layers, and long tees as dresses. i was browsing through lookbook, and everyone's dressed for fall while we californians suffer the heat. i mean don't get me wrong, i love summer weather but not at school! i just want to be in a bikini all day but that's not gonna happen while at school. ugh~! at least it's cooling down :] so hurry hurry!
i figured girls don't like me either because:

1. i try too hard to be their friend by being what i think a good friend should be
2. i get influenced by their taste on life, clothes, etc that they feel like i'm copying them
3. threaten by my confidence in myself
4. threaten by my look

or all of the above.

personally, it goes both ways. those are the reasons why i don't like girls.

I NEED A PLANNER/ORGANIZER. as;dfkjasd;kf. i feel like i need to write down what i'm gonna do or need to do or else i won't remember what needs to be done. shit i'm so disorganized in my little head. boo!