& so it begins

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going to the job fair on thursday to find me a part time job. also have a back-up job in mind but it's a bit of a drive but for sure i need a job!

gotta start doing some sort of "research" to make me look good for pharmacy school. eeeeek. it's coming so soon!

i just had a blank moment and forgot why i wanted to write a post in the first place. horrible.

time to go to bed! ahh. goodnight.
i starve myself. i don't do it because i think i'm fat or disfigured. i just don't eat when i'm depress. my diet secret i guess. anywho, i recently went through a bad state of mind when i was fighting with my boyfriend. i practically didn't eat all day that day. i'm so stupid because now i'm dealing with the aftermath. i can't eat normal portions. my stomach hurts when i do try to eat. i'm starting to hate eating. when we went to the fair, i almost died from all that greasy fat foods. alcohol kills me the next day but i drink it anyways.

i need to learn how to take care of my body.


i hate fighting. i rather just end everything all together so there will never be anymore fights. there.

it's 5:34am. i don't want to go all crazy on facebook but all i wanted to say is i can't sleep until i feel okay. i'm no where near okay.
i freaking have short hair. i never have short short hair. i've had the a line but it still touched my shoulder. i freaking have short hair.

i'm still shocked. eeps.
is clearing up. i love it. thank you dr. chan, you did something right this time. lol

i've been super sleepy everyday since after vegas. no matter how many hours i sleep, less than 8 more than 10, i'm still tired. maybe it's laziness taking over since i don't work anymore.

i need to wake up and start doing shit. school is starting on thursday. fucccccccck.



ah being 21 is amazing. i stayed mostly in the bar area so i wouldn't have to deal with the young crowd. i can't hang with that generation. i've always been the youngest person in my group of friends so this was a change.

never again will i go to an 18 and over club and never again will i wait in a long ass line and pay a coverage fee.
patron. thank you for making me feel so good. i love you.

meesh


i have really bad aim but i love this picture minus me looking extremely pale/vampire like. it fits us. we're the imperfect couple. always getting into immature fights. poking fun at each other anyway we can rather than say gooey lovey dovey stuff. no matter how much shit i talk about him to my friends, everyone knows we're meant to be. <3 at the end of the day, he's my best friend. we may not be the cute couple who always complements each other with similar taste in everything but we love each others differences. anyways, having someone like everything you like can't be that fun. right?
went to vegas from thursday til sunday. omg staying there for three nights is a good amount of time. i would say i had a lot of fun minus losing all my money once again. i enjoyed free pina coladas while sitting at the slot machine. carrying alcohol everywhere. the weather was perfect. not too hot like last time. one dollar drinks! bars, clubs, 24 hour food places. ahhh.

now i'm exhausted. goodnight.
has been my bedtime for awhile now. i need to sleep earlier especially when school's around the corner.

my father is going back to work, that means my brother and i have to watch over my mother. i'm nervous. my father has done all the hard stuff while i just watched. i don't know if i can handle that responsibility but she is my mother.

i really don't want to look for a job but i need money :[ stupid car accident. sometimes karma is a real bitch to me. hopefully my luck will change once it's time for vegas!


ah i love them! they're not super comfortable but i can handle it, it's like any other heeled shoes i have. :] i want to wear them all the time.

i also love drake's voice at the moment. omg. when he sings i just melt hahahaha.

i think the prettiest feature on a girl's face is her eyelashes. i'm obsessed with eyelashes. if you have gorgeous thick eyelashes that naturally curl, you're set. you don't even need any eye make-up because your eyelashes would already be curly and it's so thick that it looks like you have eyeliner on. ah so jealous. lately i just wear my fake eyelashes and that's it for my eye make-up. natural yet not.

i have an itch to buy bathing suits. victoria's secret is having bomb sales online. :[ and i need a hot bikini for vegas. ah sadddd

i can't decide on what car to get. i found out today that my car is a "total lost." the damage ended up being around $5300. ouch. haha this accident better not be my fault at all!

it's funny how much a big this "drama" is getting. i'm gonna try to be the bigger person and fix my mistake by not informing anyone, but all i said is how i feel. you can learn from this, too. be careful on how much information you're willing to tell someone especially if you treat this person like shit. also, having others fight your battles is childish. empty threats are pathetic as well.

that's it, i'm done. go ahead and tell all your friends how cruel i was. it's your business now.