& so it begins

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are boy shirts and heels. boy shirts, because it's comfy. heels, (not for comfort haha) because it accentuates my legs.

confession: did some online shopping and bought shoes a size too small just because i wanted the pair..hopefully my big ol'feet will fit them haha. and just cause i wanted free shipping, i had to spend $40 (which is not bad at all) so i bought two simple shirts. lol horrible.


got hit when a girl ran a stop sign on my way to steven's house. it happen so sudden that i was too in shock to do or say anything. got two bruises from the incident but other than that i'm fine :]

bad timing though because that was the day before my last day at shogun. now i have to find a job to afford me a new car. at least i'm done with shogun! yay!
in michelle >:]

you're the worst friend ever. you pretend to care yet all you do is care for yourself. you talk a lot but you don't listen. you're probably the reason why dirty rumors came up about me. you treated me like shit and denied it. i actually denied it too. fuck. you're fucking pathetic and i'm sick of you. it's stupid but by deleting you from facebook, i'm deleting you in my life. oh and you're a dirty whore who fucks in stairways of a subway. he fucked you over too. thank goodness, he was probably too good for you. you have the worst luck with guys because you are a selfish ugly being who needs totally attention without the you feeling attach. you kept stupid secrets from your own best friend and talked a lot of shit yet you put a fake front about it to her. i don't even want to fucking bother with telling her because you guys deserve each other. you've used people all your life and fucked over good friendships because you talked so much shit. i always thought the better in people but fuck you. you didn't care when my mother had her stroke, i didn't receive a slight of comfort from you. i'm sick of your lies and dependent ways. i knew i was dependent to you in our friendship but you're a fucking crazy bitch.

ps you got fat. anorexia was a good look on you ;] or maybe you should start throwing up your food again, you stupid slut.
i hate when people make a competition of being the first to do something especially if it's a really dumb thing to be proud of.

i also hate when people act like they know everything.


two weeks.
i want to leave but i don't want to leave. i'm scared because i don't know how to change my ways. i spend too much but i always know more is coming. i was so confident of what i wanted but now i'm nervous. i've been so dependent on it. maybe i should wait, maybe i shouldn't. i want to just say FUCK YOU. i think i might. it's coming and i don't want anyone to know. no one will see it coming surely til it comes.
i'm tired of having them. don't bother being my friend if you don't bother to interact with me. i'm sick of asking people to hang out and getting no results. obviously i should have known that if anyone wanted to hang out with me, they would ask. in this case, no one has. so i'm not gonna fucking bother to ask anyone anymore.
i'm addicted to working because i have nothing else to do. it's sad. today is my day off and i'm bored as hell. i'm just waiting for the boyfriend to wake up and we're off to the gym. he's on his boring diet now so i must eat before i see him or i'll be eating boring stuff. also, if he's gonna get fit, that means i must get fit too or, like he said, i'll become self conscious and think he'll leave me because he's getting hot while i remain the same. yeah i'm pathetic sometimes. blah.


i loves me some red lipstick.

also, i'm buying a new tv. i'm excited. i'm getting rid of a lot of shit that's in my room. it's so cluttered with shit i don't need.
whoever has been asking me inappropriate questions on formspring has been blocked. i figured you're trying to be funny but it isn't funny. so if you're waiting for my reply to your questions, i haven't been receiving them. have a nice day creepers.
please provide me my grants this school year. i do not want loans. i have suffered enough trying to pay off last year and has now gained back all the money from last year's aid money. i need that money for my mother's health insurance crap so make it work. i don't even need the stinking pell grant. thanks so much!

love,
michelle.