& so it begins

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me and people don't get along. i don't know how to be in a normal relationship with people because i don't have a normal relationship with my parents. i crave a lot of affection and attention because my parents felt it was inappropriate to give me the affection that i needed. i am a bit crazy when it comes to being a friend because i become attach so easily. i enjoy being needed. i love listening to others because i have nothing to say. yet my "neediness" have caused people to back away from me and it hurts. it hurts that i went through such bullshit with people and they won't admit to their mistakes. it hurts that i can't trust to tell you something like you can with me.

i don't try anymore to make friends. i don't bring up small chat because i hate the awkwardness. i'm bad at texting people back or picking up phone calls. i'm starting to feel the loneliness it has caused but i just don't like to be rejected. it's lonely.

on a lighter note, my brother just graduated. it brought back a lot of memories of high school. i miss graduation. it was so much fun because the class was small and everyone practically knew each other (sorta). i don't miss high school itself except for school being so much easier. the people at high school wasn't that great. maybe i just befriended the wrong people or people change. it happens. anywho, here's a lovely picture of my family.