& so it begins

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my hero. my stuck with best friend. my mom.

it hurts me to see her in so much pain. it's so scary how one can be fine one day and the next day one needs brain surgery.

my mother has suffered a brain hemorrhage, caused high blood pressure. it means her blood vessel popped in the brain. my father took her in after being unable to wake her up. she took the ambulance to the hospital and had to get taken in for brain surgery. it took over 3 hours. i was at work because my dad told me to go to work. i get the call at 8pm. everyone asking where am i? why am i not there? the drive there was horrible. i screamed and cried at cars to get out of my way. i drove like a maniac. i had an anxiety/panic attack when my cousin called me to see where i am and told me everything was gonna be okay.

the wait was the worst. steven came along. i love him so much more because he wanted to be there for me. we sat there and waited. family and relatives came. we sat and waited some more. my brother was upset because someone told him that my grandma was going to be okay at the same hospital and she never did make it (rip g'ma).

she made it through surgery and now she needs to be waken up to see if she's okay okay. her left side of the brain was the infected area. it controls the right side of her body and speech. i'm so scared for her. she loves dancing.

my mother has gone through so much. i've been very naive about everything she had to go through like being filthy poor that she ate once a day or while traveling to america for the first time she had to watch people suffer all around her even die next to her on the small boat. she still fears riding on a boat and the ocean. i miss her so much already and it's only been two days.

i'm still waiting for her to wake up. she's a strong lady, maybe too strong. hopefully she won't push herself too hard when she wakes up.

please when you see me, don't give me too much sympathy. i will cry and i don't want to cry anymore.

and thank you everyone who prayed for her health. i have the best friends in the world. i'm grateful for everything said and done. thank you.