& so it begins

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i like blogging because it helps me find myself. i think i'm gradually gonna be more personal since it is my blog and i don't think much people read it anyways.

my digestion problem is back and it hurts. i don't eat much anymore because of it. it really sucks. but then again i fear of gaining weight. as much as i want to gain weight, i also fear it because what if i gain weight in the wrong areas in which will be hard to lose later on. idk i'm crazy.

i can't get my mind to concentrate in school. i think i might fail my first class and have to retake it again. ugh i hate my brain. i think i fried it, i swear. i can't seem to keep anything in my long term memory. i miss when classes were easy. i think i'm just gonna take easy courses next quarter since i saved up a few GEs that i haven't taken.

i've been no mood to go out or hang out anywhere. i've been isolating myself and bumming it at home doing nothing. it's sad but i enjoy just not doing anything. hopefully my attitude will change once summer comes around.

i'm planning a trip to vegas. i have a feeling no one is gonna go. i hate making plans because i feel like i have no friends. i wish i was that person with a group of friends (especially girlfriends) but then again girls are so hard to be friends with. i still envy those who can do it. oh well. i still have steven.