& so it begins

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the other day in class my teacher told everyone to present what kind of experiment they had in their peer-reviewed paper. she already knew everyone's paper so i was nervous to present mine and i didn't want to be wrong. i was close to a nervous breakdown. my heartbeat went crazy and i was trembling. after i went, she okay-ed mine but i couldn't stop. i felt like shit the rest of the day.

the other night steven woke me up at 2am because i sent him an angry text. i woke up scared so my heartbeat was once again beating like crazy and it couldn't stop. i ending up sleeping at around 3:30am.

i have bad anxiety, nervous issues. maybe it's the lack of sleep and high stress levels. it sucks.

also, i'm having really bad sharp pains when i'm cramping after i eat. it's not pleasant and it makes me nervous. uggggh