& so it begins

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- get healthy
- thus healthy = get hot
- save $$$
- study study study
- study = not fail classes
- stop bad habits of picking at hair
- grow out my haaaair
- buy things i would constantly wear
- get my shit together
- find a new job
- have a stronger friendship with people
- less fights with the boyfriend
- more fambam time
i think my satiety level is too high. i don't have the mood for anything so i allow myself to starve. i think my body is hating me so for it. i just find it hard to find time to eat. is that bad? yes it is. especially since my main subject in college is nutrition and i learn that starving yourself is bad. i just crave for food like i use to. don't get me wrong i love eating but i just can't decide anymore. nothing sounds good because everything's been eaten all the time.

i'm exhausted.
i need to shop to make me happy because of my effed up grade i got on my first midterm of this quarter. i am so dead and ashame. i want to cry and give up on school. it sucks knowing that you might have to retake a class after one test. :[ how i desperately need money to splurge on clothes. *sigh. what am i going to do with myself?
my eating habits are getting smaller, thus i'm losing weight again. it sucks. i miss my boobs. why does it have to shrink? sad world for michelle.
i'm sick of what money does to people. the people i work with are so crazed out for it and it's kinda pathetic. there's more to life than making money. also it fucks up families. especially "borrowing" money from each other. i don't know. our society is so screwed in the brain. i just want enough to survive with a small outburst of shopping sprees<3 why must people make money so complicated?! blah.
a short gay looking (or just dresses really metro) asian guy is walking the opposite way into the class i was walking into. he cuts me off, and walks in first. then he walks down the first lane of seats while i walk down the second lane. i was about to set my things down onto the last desk when he puts HIS things on the desk. and walks around to sit there. wtf. i am pissed because he first off cuts me off then takes MY seat when clearly he was walking in the wrong row. i want to kick his ass. and when i say short i mean short. like 5ft short. >:[

also theres this weird asian kid who makes weird comments in class and the teacher always give him this look like..wth, stfu. haha i would like to quote him on something he said but i can't remember it.

oh cal poly and its weird late night classes.
i don't know why but i am never satisfied with 8 hours of sleep. i slept at 2ish 3am and woke up at almost noon because i thought i was home alone and heard footsteps but it was only my father. then i napped again til 1pm and i am happy.

first week of school had its ups and downs. it was nice seeing everyone again. also having random but wonderful people in the same class is a plus. everyone seems so nice this quarter in all my classes. i'm taking a hip hop dance class as well haha so out of the ordinary. downside, i can't do morning classes even though my earliest class is at 10:45am. also, i can't do classes after lunch because i have the craziest food coma. lastly, my classes seem even harder than last quarter. i guess i'm finally taking real college courses not stupid prereqs and GEs.

i'm having second thoughts of career choices. it's a slight second though but it's in the back of my head. i was thinking of going into engineer. i mean i love all the subjects (minus stupid physics) especially the math department. but then i have no idea which engineer i would go into and etc. meh. i'll stick to pharmacy :]

work is no fun anymore. the atmosphere is blah. i guess i'll just have to make the best out of it and maintain friendship with those i am already close with and ignore the rest. it's funny how work reminds me so much of high school. the gossiping, the shit talking, the grouping of coworkers. at least i know i won't stay in that kind of atmosphere as a career. how can people stand working in a restaurant for the rest of their lives?
i'm glad it is a new year. i believe a lot of good and bad changes were made during 2009. some friendship has sinked (haha get it? ship..sink) for good, some has faded because of the long distant, others grew stronger which i love, and new friendships were made which i hope to keep. i don't seem to remember big significant events that made 2009 except for the lost of a really long friendship but it was bound to fade anyways. new years eve party was a success this year having that i had my own party and there was no drama as in fighting, crying, cussing.

so i gladly take in 2010. new year means new everything. i'm ready for a new hair style, probably highlights. maybe a new car since my brother is heading off to college this coming fall. i would like to keep my boyfriend so no new love haha unless i get a PUPPY! new clothes are a must. annnnnd that's it. here's to the new blog for the new year. cheeeeers~!