& so it begins

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imagine everyone you speak to as if you will never be able to speak to again. would you think the world would be a nicer place? i would like to think i would remain the same. i once thought about leaving a will and what i would write in it. i would write out everything like how i hated a certain person or how much a whore another was hoping they would hear it at the funeral. i know it's wrong socially to think about your own funeral but i just can't help it. is it cause i don't fear it? i don't know. i just want people to know what i want when i do die. i want a colorful funeral. haha it's very me, you know, to want sucha crazy thing. i can already picture who would wear black because they're "hard headed" and "old fashion" or because they never cared what i want because the world revolved around them. you might ask why i am talking about this because it's crazy and random. it's because i just watched grey's anatomy and it got me thinking. so there, this blog was suppose to be saying one thing but it just ended up another. let's just be cautious (is that the word? my mind is gone because of the lack of sleep from all the morning classes i have) of what we say to others. even if they're fat, ugly, stupid, and can't drive, sometimes it's not worth hurting someone else. that and they already know that they're fat, ugly, stupid, and can't drive. :]