& so it begins

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i've been meaning to write on here with multiple things in mind. first off, for three nights in a row i could not easily fall asleep because my back ached the whole time and i woke up with a cramp neck. i also lost weight. i lost 5 pounds. i would say it is from working and having the worst pms in the world. i hate working full time. i seriously stress way too easily.

second, i don't understand why i attract guys. haha i find it so odd. i would say my looks help a lot for my poor personality. it's kinda sad. if i had the same personality as i do now but in a fat person's body, i would be that annoying fat girl who tries too hard to be cool. maybe that's why people didn't like me much during high school. not that i was fat, but cause i was awkward looking. i really don't know what i'm talking about but my looks do not match who i am. i hate how i give off that impression that i'm a crazy party girl who's super outgoing, etc but i really am not. i don't like social outings, i don't have many friends, i rather be alone in my own thoughts.

third, i forgot. i think i am losing my mind or i have the worst memory ever.

fourth, i would like to bitch about incompetent people. seriously, how can you work at a place for over a year and still do not know how to do your job. also, why do fat people think it's okay to wear skanky clothes when normal size people can't even wear it out. also, going to school for hair and nails cannot be that difficult. i'm frustrated with dumb people.

so i can't think anymore, i'm going to bed. goodnight.